My Plan/ Goal

Ok so been doing ALOT of thinking today and it's time to make some changes in my current lifestyle. I'm tiered of feeling guilty so here it is:

Plan #1
As from tomorrow, I will no longer be smoking at work and will "forget" my ciggies at home. That means I will only be smoking 2 a day as apposed to 5 and then after the move will stop smoking all together.
It doesnt stop there because I am hoping I can get DH to stop smoking with me. This I no is gonna be alot harder than it sounds beacuse he absolutely loves smoking but hopefully if he can see how well I am doing and also really understand the risk to TTC and our future baby, he will quit too. We both quit last year and did so well for 10 months but then out of the blue DH decided that he wanted to start smoking again and I was an idiot to think I could manipulate him in to stopping when I decided to start again too.

Plan #2
We are moving next weekend so at the moment my nights consist of packing boxes. Once we are moved in (and I mean the very next week) I will be going back to gym again. Not necessarily every night (although when we first started gym, we were going every night) even if it is only 3 - 4 times a week. They have an ABS class every Tues and Thurs and I felt really great when I tried it the first time. I WANT to get my body back into shape and lose the extra weight I put on when I stopped smoking last year. I really feel so uncomfortable and although everyone seems to think the extra weight looks good on me, I dont agree. How can I love other's if I dont even love myself? I want to lose the weight for me and no one else.

Plan #3
Already ordered some OPK's and will be attempting the "Sperm meets Egg" plan. I'm on CD5 now so still have some time to get my mind prepared for all the BDing. Not that I mind it, just so tiered and too cold to get naked and perform every 2nd day, LOL.
The OPK's are also so that I can make sure my cycle is coming back on track and that I am ovulating. Still feeling so incredibly bloated today so I'm hoping that it also has something to do with my cycle regulating.

And most importantly but not really a plan, I'm gonna stay positive, keep the faith and allow God's will in all of this. Even though I am trying my best to get my body in shape and ready for baby I know that if it is not His will than there will be no baby. Atleast I will be healthy and in better shape :)